Why I don’t write #6: Because it’s a blank page

There’s maybe nothing as intimidating as a screen o white, or a page with nothing but rows and rows of blank lines. But then again, shouldn’t there be nothing as exciting as these possibilities ?I’s all a question of perception, the old half-full-half-empty dilemma, which is all about interpretation. There’s nothing good or bad without thinking makes it so, and sometimes my thinking is my biggest barrier. Worries crowd out creative thought – but you can’t put off writing until the creative faucet hits, because you’ll find that soon there’s just something else to worry about instead. Writing needs to …

Why I don’t write #5: Because I didn’t write yesterday

I really should even have to go into the obvious nature of this one. I think it’s maybe one of the by-products of reading a lot bout habits and how to be active and successful, The importance of forming good habits – doing things every day at the same time every day, having cues to help you get on with whatever it is you’re trying to achieve. But in my case, that nagging voice has turned this into: “So, you didn’t write yesterday? FAIL! Why bother today!” Obviously, this is ridiculous. It wouldn’t apply to any other section of my …

Why I don’t write #3: Because I’m no good.

It’s so difficult to objectively assess the quality of your own work. Is being an English teacher a help or a hindrance? When the day is spent surrounded by some of the best n literature that the English language has to offer, and when you’re spending the day exploring, other people’s writing, sometimes it perhaps isn’t as helpful as it might be. Assessing your own work is hard: it’s why so many people recommend leaving a gap between writing and editing, to help you see the flaw and mistakes, and give a clearer view of the value that’s there too …

Why I don’t write #2: Lack of stamina

Sitting down to write something, some fictional glimmer that’s struck me that day or been sitting with me for days, weeks, occasionally months, and I find it difficult to get beyond a few pages. Then I give up. Because obviously, when I think about great writers and their work that makes me want to cry with inadequacy,, in my head they wander to their garden office (on the wishlist) with their morning cup of tea, and write furiously, all day long. They produce beautiful sentences which grow and change into glorious paragraphs, tense and exciting chapters, until finally, a finished …

Why I don’t write #1: Lack of ideas

I’ve been thinking about this series for a while, realising that post-wedding, post-new term, I still am not writing and a series of goal dates flash past while the page stays empty. I have lots of reasons and excuses in my head. But even as I started to type the title, my fingers pause on the colon: I don’t know what to write. I have ideas. I have ideas on the pages of notebooks that line two study shelves and that are in my desk tidy, on a post-it note in the back of my school planner, on word documents …

Happiness Project week 24

* An amazing hen do in Haworth with brilliant friends and family * Feeling loved and valued * Getting back on track * Keeping up with morning writing * Going to the gym and feeling it * Organising storage space at work (so geeky about organisation!) * Visiting school libraries to gather ideas together * Completing a piece of work that’s been outstanding for a while * Organising wedding table decorations * Making headway on more planning details * Visiting the venue and knowing next time we come down those stairs we’ll be married!! * Buying Dan’s wedding suit. Gorgeous. …